So, I know. I've been awful at this. shocker totally expected. But, guess what!? While on a hiatus from blogging, I've been staying afloat, or trying super hard to, in real life! So, really, not all that bad. A few months ago, I really, truly, intentionally prayed for God to consume me and my life with Him. Just, to eliminate the preoccupation with my singleness (among other things, but especially that), which seems to come so easily to me, and replace it with Him--joy and contentment in my relationship with Him. I prayed for opportunities to be in places & surround myself with people/things that are also trying to bring Him glory. Because how can I expect to meet this man that I pray for daily if first, I'm not seeking the Lord wholeheartedly, and second, not actively choosing to be in situations where that could happen. The kick start to this was from my incredible church ( when we did a series that started on Valentine's Day called "I Can't Stand Being Single." Really--check it out.

Now, I don't want anyone to misinterpret, I am not choosing activities, or specific places to go all husband-hunty up in here, not in the least. But really, y'all--the Lord answers prayers.

Nobody have a heart attack, this is not a post wherein I tell you how I've met the man of my dreams--not yet! But I begged God to fill me, consume my everyday, selfish, ridiculous life with His glory--and He has!! So incredibly. I'm not gonna list all the stuff going on weekly, but please just know that I desire daily to be satisfied in Him alone, and He honors that. Daily. Hourly. Every second. And it rules.

Ok. So here's the portion of the blog where I cheat and post things I've written since I've last posted here, which, yeah...I know. Long time. I'll work on it! Surely it'll be easier in the summer! Back to the cheating--so my mom works for a non-profit organization called Military Child Education Coalition, and they have a blog. April is the month of the Military Child, and since I was one of those, they asked me to blog a little somthin'-somethin' so I did! And here's the link to that if you care to read it! It's not too long, so it shouldn't be too rough. Ya know, if you chose to read it!

Ok. There's that. And here's the last thing: so we had Phi Lamb elections last night. Each person running for a position gets to write a letter to Phi Lamb, and I figured I'd share mine. God had in store for me to get to serve again next year, but this time as President. I am pumped, elated, nervous, ill-equipped, etc. But He's TOTALLY got it taken care of. He is good, and is glorified always. I just want to do whatever I can to see His glory revealed in my life, and also through Phi Lamb. So, here's that:

Beautiful friends, I just want to begin by telling you, hopefully not for the first time, how much I’ve enjoyed, learned, & grown from getting to be a part of Phi Lamb this last year. You are incredible women, and God has refined me in ways that I could have never comprehended because of each of you, and so I just wanted to start off by saying thanks. :)

I feel like God has so intentionally used every season in my life so far to lead up to this one, and in these last few months, and hopefully for a long, long time to come, a few, crucial things He’s ignited in, and is commanding of me, among many others, are obedience and boldness in Him. And let’s be honest—it can be pretty terrifying.

One of the passages in Scripture that He’s highlighted for me over and over again in this season is 1 Timothy 1:15-17. Paul says, “Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display His unlimited patience as an example for those who would believe on Him and receive eternal life. Now to the King eternal, immortal, invisible, the only God, be honor and glory forever.”

Whoa. Seriously, every time I read that I get pumped, because I’m that person, that messes up constantly, doesn’t have it all together, and would certainly be the last person anyone would ever think, “Hey, she’d totally do a great job at that!” But God is incredible. I’m so flawed and selfish, but that’s exactly why He chooses me, and you—because when I get out of His way, serve and glorify His name the way I’m called to, and He receives the glory that he certainly deserves, there’s zero doubt that it had nothing to do with me. He uses me, the worst, so that when something goes well by His grace alone, He’s the only one who receives the glory. Which makes sense, because He’s the only one who deserves it. I’m so grateful to share this with each of you, and to have the opportunity to be transparent with you.

Turns out, He’s got some incredible things in store for us: the flawed & messed up. Each individual person in the church is capable of recreating the church. I am cautiously and fearfully responding to God’s call on my life in possible leadership for next year because we’re not to just attend church, bible studies, and chapter meetings, but we’re to actively pursue spreading this vision, that we share as Christ-followers and members of Phi Lamb, and that we share with other believers on our campus and in our community. We desperately want to love on and share Christ with those the Lord so urgently wants relationship with—everybody.  Revival is here, friends. It’s in Lubbock, on Tech’s campus, and in our hearts, and I pray fervently that we catch on to it as individuals, but also as an organization—to join with our friends and bring change to every area of influence we’ve got. I’m SO pumped about what the Lord has specifically chosen us to do, and cannot wait to see what He has in store! You are all so incredible and encouraging to me, and I appreciate your listening to what He’s laid on my heart, and I’m so excited to get to serve you all next year, no matter what that looks like. I love you a TON, Jessie

Getting to serve as Chaplain this last year has been an incredible, jaw-dropping, eye-opening, Spirit-filled experience, and I seriously cannot wait to see what He has in store for me/us in the days to come. Yesterday He really stressed a verse to me over and Habakkuk 1:5 it says: "Look at the nations and watch--and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told." NUTS!! So, I think I'll leave ya with that! :)

You stay classy,